Monday, April 28, 2008
thoughts
okay... feels kinda weird blogging now since I haven't blogged for about half a year already.
tonite's just been uneventful and it really makes ur mind wander. Read my brother's blog just now and it made me feel very sad. As I read what he wrote about life, about the family, I just wonder, is life really that bad? As the year goes by, amidst all the hustle and bustle of uni, ministry and social life, it all the more makes me know that I have so much to be joyful for, so much to smile about, and so much to thank God for. Sure at times we have our sad moments, but are we able to look beyond that and know that at the end of the day, we still have a God who knows us and wants only the best for us?
This morning I sent my car for servicing just down the road, about 5 mins drive, so I decided i'd walk home after dropping it in. The walk back took 30 mins, and I must admit, it was a very rare 30 mins that I had to soak in the sun, the fresh air, take in the sights and sounds of my neighbourhood, and more importantly collect my thoughts. It was rather insightful. I started thinking about my future, where I would settle after graduation, how i'd do up my house, what car I would drive, how my future kids will attend school here and attain the local accents. I also thought about people in my life, especially those from my local church, how they've all been such a blessing to me. It's really these people that God strategically place in our lives that make the hours that go by more worthwhile.
And I know that this year cannot be like last year. I love last year. But apparently i'm supposed to love this year even better. Perhaps if I had been writing this post one month ago my optimism about this year wouldn't be the same, but I feel like i'm finally getting the hang of it, seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Not to dwell on the good things from last year, but to trust that the LORD will provide for this year, and that the best is yet to come. I'm looking forward to it.
Just a few nights ago somebody asked me, what is your purpose in life. No, i'm not afraid of that question. And I dare say that at this point in time, even though i'm not clear on what my 'purpose' in life is, I say with confidence that I am living for what counts in His Kingdom, not what counts to me. Maybe few years back I would say that I know He wants me for this or that, but having come here and experiencing new things, I know that He is working powerfully in my life, and that even though right now I don't have a definate answer to what my purpose in life is, I know that He is molding me, training me and preparing me for His Kingdom assignment. And I know it's going to be great.
So perhaps now after reading this post, you might want to ask yourself, is life really that bad? Well, I know for sure, that the best is yet to come.
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