Thursday, January 26, 2006
Bubu rawks! I love bubu.
Well, bubu's actually my Shanghainese grandmother. Went over to her place today and well, she's doing okay. And she was all smiles when we came (meaning that we really don't visit her enough that each visit becomes "special") which shouldn't be the case, but nonetheless, i was happy to see her too. And as much as there's not a lot of communication between us, i'm just comforted to know she loves me, by putting lots of food in front of me and asking me if i want this or that. There's really nothing like a mother, and a grandmother's love.
With my limited mandarin, i try to tell her things about me. I want her to know that she's still very much a part of my life. And did i mention her smoked chicken's awesome? Deelicious!
Ok, more updates on my bubu after new year.
Anyway, had duty yesterday, and i watched this vcd called "The Way Home". It's in Korean, but with english and mandarin subtitles. The story's about this city boy who visits his mute grandmother for the first time, who lives in a rural village. The show is slow-moving and touching. It's just awesome to see how the boy who at first hated his grandmother, ended up loving her and caring for her. It's truly an awesome flik! I recommend it to anyone who wants an artistic film that's oozing with meaning. I give it 5 popcorns.
Neways, kept thinking today was Friday, but sigh, it's thursday. But today wasn't actually such a bad day, unlike other days in camp. I've been fairly stressed and all, but i just don't often show it. I think that eversince i tried to control my temper and emotions, i ended up bottling it up instead. I dunno. But i'm fine, really.
happy new year folks...
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Lunch today was good. We went to Little India and ate with our hands.
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
nothing is sound
i feel like crying. The world's playing with my emotions, happy, sad, laughing, crying, singing, whining, excited, demoralized...
i feel so lonely even in the company of many. what's wrong with me? am i losing it?
what if i become numb to this feeling....?
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
cheat my feelings....
that driving tester lor. Throughout the test he was so calm and smiling and happy. Then when the test was over and at the briefing room where he will tell you whether you passed or failed, he tells you all your good points, comments that it wasn't bad driving, then he tells you "but you'll have to do it again", and then he tells you areas to look out for. I was like... O...K.... quite erm... dots...
irritating.
fine la, try again in april. Looks like i won't get to try my parent's new car so soon huh? (or would i?) Headed back to camp around 6 something in the evening, which was highly unusual. Had some unfinished work that was due the next day. Me and my colleague ended up staying until 2 plus in the morning! Craziness. I'm just glad that the big bosses were happy with our work the next day. Thank God for that.
That day was a very eventful day in camp. Lots of bad things happened. Like people getting charged and all? It becomes a whole office affair and i ended up staying in camp later than usual. Was dead hungry lor! Sigh, event after event, day after day, makes a very tiring week. Was so dead beat that i went to sleep at 9 plus at night, and got up this morning around 8am. More than enough recharging of my battery eh...
and one last thing. Add a comment or tag my board lehh......
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
DRIVING TEST TOMORROW!
pls pray for me...i really want to pass...
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
For lack of a better title
Ahhh! I'm totally addicted to acoustic version of Switchfoot's "Stars". OMGoodness OMGoodness luv it luv it luv it...
Ooohh Weee i think i'm a little bonkers right now. Sucha boring afternoon. Okay morning was fine. Led with me dad on stage during service today. Here's the weirdest thing probably nobody knew, that i was literally
shaking when it came to 'One Way'. Shaking as in like vibrating and uttering and totally nerve wrecked! I dunno what came over me, but i was so uber nervous lor! Felt like just squatting down heh...
Weather today was utterly HOT! After 6 days of non-stop rain, God finally decided to give us sunshine! Okay, praise God for the sunshine, but it was way too hot!!
Hmmm... few more days before we get our new car! Yay! Im gonna miss our toyota...
Neways, been too slack for comfort these past days. Hung out with army buddies for 'cohesion' on friday. Had one hell of a good time. Didn't drink ;) But did drop by Acid Bar to see some friends, and i must say, WOW, what a fantastic band that performed that night. Know what's my dream? I wanna sing in a bar like Acid Bar. Yah i do. Or if i'm not good enough i might just settle for busking along orchard road. Anyone up to do it with me? :)
Ohh man, now i'm gonna talk about this new year. And i'm totally like... 15 days late! (does my writing make me sound like a himbo?? Goodness i'll stop...) So anyway, i can just feel the pressure building up. I'm gonna be expecting more work in the office, and yet another semester of uni is going to start again! On top of that, church commitments are still around, like another term of Worship Academy and maybe Masterlife 4. I dunno if i can take it or not. And that's not the worst part. PIMPLES! Gahh! hate em. Mine's stress related by the way. Sigh, don't react too well to stress do i?
Anyway, to all who actually noticed i was at a low point in life the past few days and showed concern, i really just wanna say a big thankyou. Now i know who my real friends are. i thank God for you guys. U guys rawk!! :D
Mmm... had a lot to say just now but when i actually come down to blogging it it just bursts away like a flock of butterflies. K lah, at least managed to write enough to consider a 'long entry' rite? haha..
Well, catch ya'll around the week. Stay cool.
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
small. alone. scared. insecure. lonely. depressed.
sigh. anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. i've lost everything.
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Interest Free
It's my first post of the new year. Kinda weird huh? It's like i've totally lost interest in blogging. But then again, i realised that i have kinda lost interest in everything that i do! fantastic rite? I dunno, the past few days in camp have been stressful. I hate camp life. I've never been this down in all my years. I feel depressed. And the worst part is that all around you, people are all making progress, and you can't help but think, "Hey, you're getting old. Step aside".
So yeah...
And well, i'm down with a fever today so i took MC. Wish i could say more, but there's just so much bottled inside, i don't know where to start. I think i'll just keep quiet. I don't need nobody's sympathy. I'll just dig a hole and bury my head in it.
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