Tuesday, July 31, 2007
What we're here for
It's been a meaningful week for me, with weekends spent at Brownlie Towers (one of our church's place of missions), just helping out in events like Christmas in July and the Sunday morning service. I know it's not much, but for me it's like a realisation and yet another reality check that the world does not revolve around ourselves, that there are people in and around us in this world that need more than material blessings. They need our love, our time, our couple of hours to spare from our busy work schedules. It all boils down to where we choose to build and store our treasures.On a slightly unrelated note, just the other day I was listening to a conversation where someone was describing what his uni classes were like, creating videos, watching videos, doing this, doing that, doing all things media-ish, and that just made me feel so.... jealous, unfortunate, angry, insecure. Ok actually, wrong choice of words here, a bit strong. I just can't quite put a finger onto what i'm feeling. I know this is strange, and there I am again wallowing in self-pity, but to think about it, after all these months of being here and going through what i've been through with administration problem after problem, and more problems with subject selection and even having to change my degree altogether just cos i'd been lied to by the agent to come to this school to not do what I want and just fit into their lousy system, that's unfair. My passion's not being fed, my potential's not being harnessed, i'm not making use of my skills, i'm working shit out of my knees and worst part is, they try to convince me this is better for my future. And there are times where I would think that i'm in a worser position than my peers...
Thankfully, there's a promise which goes..."I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for."
- Jeremiah 29:11 (The Message Bible)
Umm... how strange. It's comforting all of a sudden actually, after ranting on and on about life, and then upon reading this verse, it feels like a sudden and abrupt fullstop, yet there is this unexplainable peacefulness inside of me.I dunno, but I do know that there will be times where I fall again. I just pray that you out there will be there when I fall, and I the same when you do.That's what we're here for.
2:30 PM |
0 comments
- the lovers, the dreamers and me -
