Sunday, August 14, 2005
Today
Class ended early today so i rushed to church after that. We had youth sunday today. I managed to catch the last few minutes of ukc's message, plus sing the closing song, 'Power of Your Love'. It's a beautiful song, a declaration that we are weak and He is strong, and that God's love is the key to overcoming anything. That song was really relevant for me as well, considering my current situation.
Well, it's been 4 weeks away from church now since the new semester of uni started. It's pretty stressful juggling camp with studies and driving. Last wednesday i drove in my new instructor's Mitsubishi Lancer. It was much much smoother and easier to drive than BB's Honda City.
Anyway, had a heritage run last saturday, except i didn't run, or rather, wasn't allowed to run. It's sad that with my heart condition, the army wouldn't want to take that risk and let me run. I guess it'll be a lot of unwanted media attention if i died while running huh? But they don't know i've been running. And each run makes me stronger. But it comes with a risk. Am i being foolish?
After church today, quite a number of us hung out at potong McD, followed by a quickie at the tau huay stall. Headed to Dwong's ctry club and studied quite some. Was quite happy that what i studied managed to sink in, mostly anyway. Had 2 games of bowling after that. It was fun, despite losing some of my skill from many years ago. Guess i am kinda rusty now.
Anyway, been thinking a lot. So many things on my mind; Worship Comm, studies, driving, girlfriend, army stuff. It's a lot to handle ya know? Funny how i'm going thru so much stress but nobody seems to notice. They don't know what motivates me or what rips my heart out.
But i guess only God knows. And He's my only way out now.
10:14 PM |
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