Friday, July 22, 2005
so many things
Hey, there's just so many things that have yet to be updated on this blog, cos i haven't had the time and the mood to update it. Well, i am ever so grateful to Angel for helping me put this blog up for me. It's a simple concept (it's my concept) but i think it represents the kind of blog that i want to have, one that relaxes me and makes me feel happy when i read it.
Well, i gotta seperate my entries into smaller paragraphs with this new layout, so here goes!
Camp has been good and bad. It's been excellent getting to know the guys from the other branches better and making conversations and good friends and all, and i really thank God for that. He has been so faithful to me. I love Him. As for the bad side of camp life, i'm really starting to feel the kick of army life. Being just a Private, my freedom is so restricted. There's always this insecurity lurking around in certain places and around certain people, it's just creepy. Not that my camp is "dirty" either, as i believe in a risen God. It's more of people bugging me than anything else...
I admit. I still have a problem with Alvin. Yes, i do. It's so hard to love the "unlovable" sometimes, especially when the things he does are just so provoking so annoying so... they're just wrong. I know i am not to envy those who do the wrong thing due to the fact i should be joyous in doing the right thing, but sometimes it causes so much suffering. Like breaking rules just to get better food outside of camp?? I just endure with what they provide. And i know that i myself haven't been much of a saint either, i just wish and hope and pray that someday i will be delivered from this trial. Oh Lord hear my cry. Lord i know what i do is wrong, but what i want to do, i do not do, and what i don't want to do, i do (Romans). Forgive me, Lord.
On a brighter note, i am proud to announce the completion of my very first camp duty as duty clerk! It's an interesting experience, and i'm sure there are a lot of things i can learn out of it. I've got another one this Sunday hence i won't be coming to church. But i hope that even though i'll miss one Sunday, that i will still manage to have a close relationship with God.
U know, being close to God is something that i wish i could maintain. For me, it always fluctuates. I should try to be more consistent. I pray that i can find more Christian brothers (and maybe sisters) in my camp, so that i can stay close to the One i love. God, You are my only One. :)
Today we officially welcomed Portia and Weihan into the Worship Ministry in YF. I don't know why these people have been there all the while but i did not welcome them to the committee. Guess God must have wanted to teach me something about relying on His providence instead of my own, for i am weak but He is strong. So yup, Angel, Posh, Weihand and I went to pizza hut just now for dinner. We had a great meal and we did manage to talk about stuff concerning worship in YF. Not so much of a discussion or anything, but more to get to know each other better and to see where they can cantribute in the worship scene. I really thank God for these two new people, and hope that we can all be united in ministry for the benefit of all in YF, and in turn be used as instruments to bring them closer to God.
God is our ultimate goal. I'm reaching for the prize.... I will run the race....
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