Sunday, June 20, 2004
what to say?
Sunday, 20th June 2004
Today is just 2 days b4 my birthday and well, i kinda did receive wishes and a few gifts..i admit, it's these little thoughtful things that make me happy. It's not that if u dun give me anything i won't be happy :) I'm just happy to receive something...anything that will assure me that i am being loved and welcomed, and that people enjoy my company. That was what i felt today. I felt accepted. I felt like i belonged. I realised who my true friends are. A few ppls i would like to thank: Jon Yang, Sam Tan, Janna, Charlotte, Angel, Rachel, Daryl...you guys are the greatest! Well, really, i just wanna say i feel happy in u guys company, and hope u feel the same way bout me too. God bless ya'll...
Anyway, i played the guitar this morning for worship during YF for the first time. It wasn't a frightening experience but well, it was quite a good experience. Hmmm...i hope that God was pleased with it. I really can't remember whether i played with my heart and all..but i just hope that with this gift that God gave me, i can use it to bless His kingdom. But i also want to thank those who gave me the opportunity to play the guitar for Him, cuz there are many many other better players out there than me, but why me? So therefore i feel that it is such an honour to be able to play music for the King of Kings.
Today after church everyone just disappeared...no it wasn't the rapture, but few of my friends just disappeared to lunch w/o me...so simple, i went with another group lol..i do realise that i can mix around with a few groups in church. I try not to stick in a clique but sometimes due to my insecurity i have to...but other than that, i try not to. But i can't help but feel like i'm in the middle of the ocean when i can't find anyone. Like after leaving the basement youth room and went to level 1, i didn't see anyone so for a moment i did feel a bit...well, like i needed someone to talk to..just that there was no one in sight. I don't know whether i feel unwanted and lonely, or did i feel that i have the friends but they're just at another place? Hmm..i think the latter one sounds more logical..but oh well, i'll leave my life story up to God who has a great plan for me wherever i go and whatever trial i face. Yesterday (19/6) was my mom's b'day. Not much of a celebration, had WhamBurger for lunch, and mfor dinner, we were rushing thru it just to get to rehearsal on time...so really, not much of a celebration. I do feel guilty so if mom u ever read this, i'm really really sorry. I know there's much more i can do to honour you and dad but due to my rebelliousness, i didn't. I hope u forgive me. Anyway, do i sound like a momma's boy here? Think all u want cuz i'm not! Hahaha...i just happen to love my parents very much~ :)
Angel: Thx for always trying to care for me when i'm angry, even though i snap at u for doing that but...i really appreciate it and i hope u forgive me if i do that again. All the best in ur new school life in TP tmr...hope u find lotsa friends and enjoy ur course! Remember, in all things, make sure it glorifies God~ take care!
Rachel: Heyyy...thx for the card. Will update u more on it in the days to come. But for the public eye to see, i just wanna thank u for the time we had in Port Dickson. It was really good catching up with u then..i really enjoyed those chats and all. I'm glad to see u're expressing ur problems to Angel..hope u two haf a good sistership yea?
Jon/Janna: You guys rawk! Really enjoy ur company..all the best Jon in the UK, and for u too Janna, God has a plan for u, so keep trusting in Him for He has a plan specially for u~!
Daryl/Chalotte/Eugene: Haha..you guys are quite a fun bunch i haf to say...siblings with quite different characters sometimes, but quite a good combination also haha..take care guys..and God bless!
Sam Tan: The one and only sam tan...future school mate haha...quite musically talented i must say...keep shining for God yea? Tata..
Not forgetting my friends at Amici..i will come back sometime again to see u guys. Hopefully i can work there again sometime...but yeah..see how lah.
So yeah...thank God for u guys in my life. What would i do w/o u guys?
out.
whipped cream?
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