Tuesday, June 08, 2004
life...
What does it mean to nag?Oxford Dictionary says it as:
(verb) persistently criticize or scold; (often + at) find fault or urge, esp. continually; (of pain) be persistent.
Webster's New World Dictionary says it as:
1 To annoy by continual scolding, faultfinding, complaining, urging, etc.
2 To keep troubling, worrying, etc. [nagged by thought] to urge, scold, find fault, etc.
American Heritage Dictionary says it as:
v. nagged, nag-ging, nags
1 To annoy by constant scolding, complaining or urging
2 To torment persistently, as with anxiety or pain
Need i say more?
My life is so nagged WAhahaha..*fakes a weak laughter*...i don't want to think about it...thinking about it only makes me more angry. In fact, why have i found myself stuck in the habit of blogging?!! Blogging listens to my problems, but it also spits it back at me as if to help me remember the rough times in my life. What can i learn from blogging? I don't know...but the feeling of throwing your woes and sorrows to something that will listen and not argue back is too hard to avoid. I need it to cushion my fall...to hear my cry...to...to...whatever lah...it's full of crap.
On Sunday, Eugene (Tan) has been commenting that i seemed sad...sadder than usual. I can't explain it. I'm happy being around my friends, i totally enjoy their company. But there's this little part of me that's "affected". On one side of me i'm really happy, laughing out loud and chillin with my friends...but deep down somewhere in me, hidden and unidentifiable is something that's eating my joy. It's like a cancer..i don't know where it is, i don't know where it's affecting. All i know is that it's there somewhere like a man-eating virus. I don't know what it is. I still can't identify what it is. I'm lost in the middle of the Pacific ocean with no compass for direction....
So like...i try to stay away from HOME as much as possible. See, that's the biggest problem with today's youths - they stay away from home too much. They'd rather hang around doing nothing along the hot hot streets than be at home with aircon and this and that. BUT WHOSE FAULT IS IT??? It will be totally unfair to say that it is the parents. However, it would be equally unfair to say it is the child's fault. As a matter of fact, it takes two hands to clap, and slightly bias to my own status, i feel it has got to do more with the parents than the child. Why? It is because the only factor that could make a child think that the outside is better than home is cuz there must be something about their home they want to be away from, be it person or posession. Don't want to elaborate more cuz this is just a waste of time.
Personally, i love my family. I do. But sometimes it's hard to show, and when silly little things get on my nerves everyone gets all childish and proud and all and every single piece of history is raked up from the grave again and BOOM!!! Pearl harbour gets bombed all over again and lives are lost....
There i go again, babbling rubbish.
But work today was not bad tho...received my very FIRST paycheck! Yay! Haha..can't tell ya the amount tho haha..secret hehe...yeah, i pray that God will help me use the resources He gives wisely. Yeah..good ol David at the restaurant gave me some good food today. Business was a little slow today so he had time to make me a real mini pizza Haha..as in imagine a pizza the size of a coaster hahaha..cute! But a whole lot good ta eat! What else..got to taste some award-winning tiramisu, ate some really really good brownies, got stuff to drink here and there...very good lah...
Hmm...my sadness...could it be a conflict between life in and out of church??? Like restaurant vs. church? Like i dunno...maybe...maybe not...ah whatever lah. Another story for another time.
out
whipped cream?
Yes/No thanks (Must say "thanks" out of common courtesy)
P.S. I had an ice mocha at Megabyte today...quite okay lah, but cannot compare to Starbucks! Haha...
12:44 AM |
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