Wednesday, June 30, 2004
blackout and underwear

Woke up at 11am todae...today's tuesday so no school...met sam tan and his friend alan at 12 noon..played bout 1 hr 15 mins of badminton. I must say, i really must play more often! Think i'm really out of shape! Haha..but oh well, might try to make it a habit to play every tuesday then. After badminton, i had a porkchop at canteen 2..they say the standard has dropped there...i agree. It just wasn't as good as it used to be. But anyhow, it's still edible food...and i was hungry so yeah.





Went out with my mom to John Little after that...i bought me new Levi's underwear! Wahhh comfy sia...dun worry they're not denim (ouch) LOLx!!! They were on discount, so quite a bargain! Haha...perhaps i'll get a pair of spongebob boxers someday too???...maybe at the next great singapore sale lah haha....





Oh yah..BLACKOUT..so scary!!! Was typing away on me laptop in me room, and listening to radio when suddenly the whole place went dark!...cept me laptop of course. I thot it was just my flat when me bro andrew suddenly said that the whole pandan valley is out as well!!! i was SOOOO shocked!!! First thing that came to my mind was...powerplant in jurong island exploded...second thing that came to my mind was...terrorist blew up the powerplant in jurong island. BUT...thank God it wasn't. Turned out to be some interruption of the gas supply from indonesia. Some of me friends kena blackout also...they all stayed home together as a family, some even had "candlelight" dinner haha...but me? No...my family, we hopped onto our car and dropped andrew back to camp! haha..got aircon ;) The streets were all dark..traffic lights not working...so scary. Like the endtimes when everything goes wrong??? Scary man...but halfway thru the journey there were streetlights again so it wasn't so bad. And oh...someone gave me a darlene zschech book for me b'day..good book. Was in my dark room with andrew just now, and he pointed his torch to that book (on the floor) and then he got a shock which caused me to get a shock too!!! Hahahaha...MAN her face looks so scary in the dark, with a white light shining onto it...hehe...





So here i am again, sitting in front of my lappy...it's past midnight as usual, and i'm updating my blog. How do i feel? Well, i was depressed the past few days but now when i'm busy, things are just...BetteR! Well..we forgive each other and we forget what happened and all. UNFORTUNATELY some people aren't taking it all too well..even though they are not involved..or are they? Oh yah..what would u do if some anon person sent u an email and called u names?? Pretty cowardly in my opinion if u ask me! Hahaha...man what a dumbo..can't think of anything else more original? If i ever find out who that person is......



....i'll decide what to do with the person when the time comes...





Out.



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Tuesday, June 29, 2004
The First Day

Today, or rather, yesterday, since it is already past midnight, was my first day of classes at Ngee Ann Poly, Mass Communication. It was....GOOD! Well, it was~ First lecture was at 8am. Was few minutes early so i sat near the back. Was kinda irritating when so many ppls start streaming in late! Really ah...i hope that i won't ever be late man...bad impression noe? Hehe...My day was generally quite good. Went round the school with new friends during 2 hour lunch break. Food at Blk 74 canteen was alright..not the best, but certainly edible...i was SOOOO hungry so no complains really. I heard that that canteen sells tako pachi as well? So i'm gonna give it a go someday hehe... So had lecture after lecture (Monday is lecture day)...had Social Psychology..Written Communication..Radio Production..Principles of Marketing. Quite fun really...for now lah..i'm kinda glad the Mass Comm lecturers do have a sense of humour. I observed them to be more fun and funky than the other department lecturers??? Well, if u disagree then email me and prove me wrong. Oh yah..also heard that one of the NP lecturers is that Mark guy from Eye for a Guy (Reality TV)?? He ain't a mass comm lecturer so oh well..there are other fun lecturers out there as well...NP rawks!! Haha...





Apart from that, i'm kinda feeling slightly better today about....u know....i was kinda depressed on saturday and sunday and well, i'm glad that i'm feeling better. Hope the other two are feeling better as well~ Take care k?..God bless ya'll heaps!





YAY! My parents bought me new shoes!!! *Smiles* I got new Adidas Superstar shoes..dark blue. Thanks dad, thanks mom. Luv ya both! *Mwacks* =]





Err..what else ah...? Nothing much, except that today (Tuesday), i have no classes. Yeah...no big deal really, i'm sure my course will get so busy that i need that extra day to catch up on unfinished work. But anyway, meeting Sam Tan at 12 noon for badminton. Hopefully i'd be able to get a good workout and u know...build-up some muscles! Haha...



Yepz..that's my day folks! Hope yours has been good too.



Peace out.



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Sunday, June 27, 2004
somebody stop me

I just realised i like to spend money excessively when i'm down. Somevody better stop me before i spend my 1 and a half month's pay on material things.



Out.



oh Freak! My blurdy neighbour just started blasting his blurdy bollywood trash over his whatever hifi. Hope i don't get angry.

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the final verdict...

No...we're not on. We can't...she has a pact with God. Either way, if we had carried on with the relationship, i will be causing her to break her promise. I will be partially accountable for her stumbling. My bad...So no, not on.



How do i feel?

Simple.

Using the example of a Caramel Coffee Jelly from Starbucks.

First, mix sadness of a wasted opportunity with happiness that i didn't make a fatal mistake. Add a touch of regret for even thinking of playing such a game, and a teaspoon of guilt, for letting down my friends and forsaking what means most to me - Friendship. Blend them all together, and you get a pretty much screwed-up drink. The taste? Bittersweet.

Do i like it?

At first, yes

But now?

I really don't know...



I don't know if it is possible for us 3 in the bizzare love triangle to just forget about what has happened and just carry on with our lives like nothing happened. I can try rite?...





On a happier note, i went out with my dear cous Qiqi today..sweet little 9 yr old girl. Brought her to J8 with Jon Yang, Janna, Sam Tan, Cheryl and Aaron Ng. Aaron, Cheryl and her went to catch Home On The Range..me? I followed the rest to walk walk...went to LIFE and bought me a Darlene Zschech Kiss of Heaven CD. After that spent almost half an hour waiting for Dai Pei Ni and Jiang Mei Qi to appear on stage...some free concert thingy and autograph session. LAME...so not fun so not exciting. Ended up going to Popular Bookstore to get my notepads...found out that Sam Tan was obsessed with the non-recycled Paperpoint A4 paper =] Hahaha...



I'm sorry everyone if my black face in YF turned u all away. Special thanks to Shimin for an encouraging SMS. Appreciate it lots.



Out.

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Thursday, June 24, 2004
DIS-Orientation Day? Nahh...

Back to school!!! Well, almost anyway. Was supposed to start at 0830 this morning, and i was rushing out of the house in fear of being late. Well i was late :) but that didn't matter cuz the whole programme didn't start till 0945am anyway. Programmewise, it was okay. We saw a few mass comm student's videos and they were well, quite impressive! And i told myself, i'm going to get used to this life, and i'm going to work hard, and i'm going to make myself stand-out from the rest! YEAH! Big dreams? I don't think so. I know it's possible, for I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength! So yeah, made a few friends from my class today, and got their mobile numbers. Throughout the day we all seemed to get along just fine so...i think we're gonna have a very good semester haha..thank God~





I prayed for a sign but i didn't see it? What does that mean? It has got to do with forming a band in Ngee Ann..Hmmm..i really don't know. I did not see what i prayed for so..i really don't know. I'm unsure. I'll just keep hanging onto the dream then...in HIS time, in HIS time...





*Sigh*...my favourite website is down. www.airliners.net is down for who knows how long? It's a place where all aviation enthusiasts hang out. I hope it comes up again soon. Then it won't be so boring on the net...





Out.



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Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Birthday afterglow

I feel 18. Yeah, can you believe being 17 and 18 feels different? Now, i feel like i have more responsibility, i need to be more mature, meaning to be more sensible, to be able to handle my own life...no more a momma's boy haha..but i never was anyway. And now that i'm 18, and my birthday has just gone by, i want to declare to the world my new birthday resolution (If there was such a thing). My birthday resolution is to: Take better control of my temper, to follow the example of Jesus Christ to be slow to anger and quick to forgiveness. 'The LORD is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion...' Numbers 14:18





I'm confused. Wanna know more? Email me. This is a public place, for every Tom, Dick or Harry to read what i write so..no, not gonna write it here.



Out.



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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
my birthday!!!

Today is kewl~ I felt...loved...hahaha...well i do feel loved most of the time anyway, just that today was, well..my day! Haha..let's see..i received gifts, wishes, and even SMSes from Jess and Hellen in Australia!!! You guys rawk man i luv u guys *mwa mwa mwa* hahaha...



Well, woke up ard 9am today..went online..then rushed down to PS where i met Rachel dear, Sam Tan, Michelle, Cheryl, and Jasper. Jasper didn't stay long tho cuz his school started already but..ur effort was appreciated haha. Then we flipped a coin to decide which fastfood outlet to go to (It's true!) and out of Mos Burger, Yoshinoya, KFC, BK and Long John's, we ended up at BK~ Had a mushroom swiss..Mmm melts in ur mouth...then after that had a Gelare waffle...half price mah...tuesday...after that caught "Around the World in 80 Days"..Jackie Chan and all...quite...lame? No lah..it was alrite lah..quite entertaining. After the show we met up with Aaron chan, angel, and anna at starbucks, then we roamed Orchard Rd...walked to lucky plaza from PS in search of my CK Crave...heard it was cheap there. Ended up not buying from there *dots*...and then walked to Heeren S.C. and went to HMV for bout 10 mins then took neoprint. Nice..i'll try to post the pic here sometime when i learn how to haha...After that me and mern met up with my parents..ate at Sakae Sushi at Heeren...didn't eat very much due to all the junkfood i ate just now so...nvm, the food there ain't fantastic..way over-rated haha...



Here i am at home now. Came back from dinner and dozed off on my bed..no, i didn't hug my guitar to sleep this time (ouch)...but i did sleep with my shoes on (can imagine ur shocked face). Yea i did..i was that tired okay! But i'm up now and yeah...doing my blog haha...



Well, that's my day. It was a good day, a day blessed by God. I love You God =]



Neways, will update ya another time yea...



Out.



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Monday, June 21, 2004
i bought...

It's a few more days before i start school again. I really don't know what to think of it, i've been away from the Singapore education system for so long now..i really dunno whether i'll be able to cope, what kind of friends i'll meet, how people react...i really dunno what to expect. People say i'll be fine, but i dunno..maybe it's just me and my little insecurities but hey..i know i'll be fine.



"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28



Planning to get more stuffs for poly...already got me a new pencil box...u know, those thin and flat metal ones from Muji? Yah..designers sia...hahaha...Still waiting to get mroe stationery..like pens and liquid paper and all haha...



Anyway gtg now. Will update later. Cyaz...



Out.



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Sunday, June 20, 2004
what to say?

Sunday, 20th June 2004

Today is just 2 days b4 my birthday and well, i kinda did receive wishes and a few gifts..i admit, it's these little thoughtful things that make me happy. It's not that if u dun give me anything i won't be happy :) I'm just happy to receive something...anything that will assure me that i am being loved and welcomed, and that people enjoy my company. That was what i felt today. I felt accepted. I felt like i belonged. I realised who my true friends are. A few ppls i would like to thank: Jon Yang, Sam Tan, Janna, Charlotte, Angel, Rachel, Daryl...you guys are the greatest! Well, really, i just wanna say i feel happy in u guys company, and hope u feel the same way bout me too. God bless ya'll...



Anyway, i played the guitar this morning for worship during YF for the first time. It wasn't a frightening experience but well, it was quite a good experience. Hmmm...i hope that God was pleased with it. I really can't remember whether i played with my heart and all..but i just hope that with this gift that God gave me, i can use it to bless His kingdom. But i also want to thank those who gave me the opportunity to play the guitar for Him, cuz there are many many other better players out there than me, but why me? So therefore i feel that it is such an honour to be able to play music for the King of Kings.



Today after church everyone just disappeared...no it wasn't the rapture, but few of my friends just disappeared to lunch w/o me...so simple, i went with another group lol..i do realise that i can mix around with a few groups in church. I try not to stick in a clique but sometimes due to my insecurity i have to...but other than that, i try not to. But i can't help but feel like i'm in the middle of the ocean when i can't find anyone. Like after leaving the basement youth room and went to level 1, i didn't see anyone so for a moment i did feel a bit...well, like i needed someone to talk to..just that there was no one in sight. I don't know whether i feel unwanted and lonely, or did i feel that i have the friends but they're just at another place? Hmm..i think the latter one sounds more logical..but oh well, i'll leave my life story up to God who has a great plan for me wherever i go and whatever trial i face. Yesterday (19/6) was my mom's b'day. Not much of a celebration, had WhamBurger for lunch, and mfor dinner, we were rushing thru it just to get to rehearsal on time...so really, not much of a celebration. I do feel guilty so if mom u ever read this, i'm really really sorry. I know there's much more i can do to honour you and dad but due to my rebelliousness, i didn't. I hope u forgive me. Anyway, do i sound like a momma's boy here? Think all u want cuz i'm not! Hahaha...i just happen to love my parents very much~ :)



Angel: Thx for always trying to care for me when i'm angry, even though i snap at u for doing that but...i really appreciate it and i hope u forgive me if i do that again. All the best in ur new school life in TP tmr...hope u find lotsa friends and enjoy ur course! Remember, in all things, make sure it glorifies God~ take care!



Rachel: Heyyy...thx for the card. Will update u more on it in the days to come. But for the public eye to see, i just wanna thank u for the time we had in Port Dickson. It was really good catching up with u then..i really enjoyed those chats and all. I'm glad to see u're expressing ur problems to Angel..hope u two haf a good sistership yea?



Jon/Janna: You guys rawk! Really enjoy ur company..all the best Jon in the UK, and for u too Janna, God has a plan for u, so keep trusting in Him for He has a plan specially for u~!



Daryl/Chalotte/Eugene: Haha..you guys are quite a fun bunch i haf to say...siblings with quite different characters sometimes, but quite a good combination also haha..take care guys..and God bless!



Sam Tan: The one and only sam tan...future school mate haha...quite musically talented i must say...keep shining for God yea? Tata..



Not forgetting my friends at Amici..i will come back sometime again to see u guys. Hopefully i can work there again sometime...but yeah..see how lah.



So yeah...thank God for u guys in my life. What would i do w/o u guys?



out.



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Saturday, June 19, 2004
Verse i learned at church retreat...

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21



Beautiful verse. It made me ask myself, who am i living for? What is the reason that i am even alive typing this? For to live is to live with Christ inside of you, and to live to glorify and do the good, pleasing and perfect will of God. To die is gain, meaning to say that i am crucified in Christ, my old self passing away and a new creation is born, born to serve and ultimately receiving/gaining eternal life with Jesus in heaven.



Will update more when i get more explanations on this verse. Till then, God bless u!



Out.



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15 - 18 June, Port Dickson, Malaysia

15 June

Supposed to go to school (Ngee Ann) today for flag day...compulsory event...but u know what? I totally skipped it hahaha...yesh. Woke up at 745am, showered and got ready and all, then left the house by 9am. Took the causeway to Port Dickson (PD). It wasn't supposed to be quite a long journey, but it took longer than usual. Our car tyres were slightly unbalanced so it made the car a lil shakey. It's not much of a big problem but if we could get it fixed, even better. So we stopped by Ayer Keroh..some lil town near to malacca to grab some lunch and some snacks and well, we saw a lil tyre shop there and they charged like half of what u pay in singapore for tyre balancing treatment, so we got our wheels done there. Left the car at the workshop and went for lunch nearby. Lunch was good, had wanton mee at only RM2 for the largest size ranging from S, M and L. Cheap rite?? Had kopi-peng as well, and it was really REALLY good. RM1 only. Haha..went to collect the car after that and as soon as we left and got to the highway to PD and hit 100km/h, things started to get dodgy. The tyres were way unbalanced and the whole car shook like crazy!!! Serious..we were all very disappointed..and quite shaken too haha. When we were reaching PD we came across a petrol station that does tyres as well so we got it fixed there. Much better after that! Reached the Guoman Beach Resort bout an hour late but dat's alrite, cuz they only start the program at 5pm. Rested for a while then went on with normal camp stuff like dinner, worship, sermon, free time and etc. Dinner was...unappetizing. The whole place was like a housefly's haven!!! It was infested i tell ya. And the food tasted...bad? Well it was really unappetizing but i ate it anyway. Around midnight, went back to my room with a few friends..mainly some of the girls and daryl and we all talked and jammed on the guitar and sang and did a bit of QT ('True Love Waits', topic on sexual immorality), as well as watched the soccer match (Germany vs. Netherlands). Was quite an okay match. We ended up sleeping around 4am plus and waking up around 640am...not much sleep eh?



16 June

Woke up ard 640am..did QT with the church then had breakfast and did the program planned out for us. Youths were rostered to lead worship that night, so we nearly spent the whole afternoon rehearsing for the worship service that night. We sang "It is now", "I will worship", "Agnus Dei" as well as "Believe". I was the worship leader together with michelle...had daryl and cheryl as background vocalists, sam on guitar, aaron on electric guitar, dom on bass, angel on keyboard and anna on drums. That afternoon the whole church had durians at tea time! It was a totally wild event i tell ya! They ordered a few baskets fulla durians and like wow..i was so happy to see the whole church so united. It was a real beautiful sight, so much happiness and unity. I guess we could all agree on durians rite? Hehe...i ate quite a lot of durians lah..can't resist haha..then that night when it was time to have worship, i was quite worried that i wouldn't be able to sing but..wow by God's grace, i still managed to sing, so praise God~!!! B4 we started, someone must have taken my lyrics away cuz they weren't there and i couldn't get any so..haha embarassing, had to turn my head all the time while leading worship and look at the powerpoint. Haha..but overall it was quite alrite. That night's dinner was quite horrible as well so we ended up ordering room service after midnight. Had a chicken chop, and i got scolded for going into the girl's bunk after midnight. I admit i was wrong..and i deserved the punishment. So anyway..that was day 2 of camp...



17 June

Woke up but didn't get to do QT cuz i was late. Woke up ard 8am plus, just in time for breakfast. Breakfast like all meals, wasn't fantastic, and was as usual, fulla flies all over the place. Was quite a hot day that day. Then same as the day b4, did the normal camp stuff, worship, sermon, bible classes with auntie marrilyn. Was overall quite good, did learn some useful stuffs. That night after youth sexual purity program, a number of us took to the streets and went to eat some supper. Among the youths that went was me, aaron, angel, anna, and cheryl. We ate quite a lot of good stuff like hor fun, buttered prawns, sotong and so on...then when we got back we realised it was already past midnite, which means it would be eugene har's b'day..and since his parents were with us, we decided to ask them if we could give him a birthday surprise and haha they said yes~ So yes, we grabbed our guitar and a lot of us went up..like my bunch and charlotte's bunch...in other words, lotsa youth guys and gals. So yeah, he was in his room already sleeping, and haha we caught him sleeping! HAhaha...his usual look on his face...didn't take any pics but his mother did so yeah..haha was fun that night...i slept quite late, tho not as late as the night b4..maybe around 3am plus? Was in room 312 playing bridge and watching soccer. Then around 230am went back to 313, my room, only to find many ppls inside playing Settlers, some boardgame..but that was totally fine with me..they were my friends so yeah. They played and i slept hahaha...



18 June

Last day. For the past few days i slept very little hours only, so i was somehow extra tired that night and cos of the rainy weather, i only managed to wake up around 1030am instead of 645am...my bad...and yeah..i feel a bit bad, cuz my dad was worship leading and i like totally missed it, and i also missed the last sermon, which was supposedly the best of them all...haiz...regret. But oh well, left the hotel earlier than the rest. Drove down to malacca town..had nyonya food...some chendol...some putu piring, then bought some D-24 durians back! Hahaha..good stuff man..it totally stank up our car but hey..it's worth it! haha... then yeah, most of the day was spent in the car, driving home and all. Got back to Singapore, then picked andrew up from camp and then went for dinner at cheong chin nam road...bumped into cheryl and family there haha..but yeah..had indian food. Quite good. After that came home and all and then here i am, sitting at my computer typing away.



Reflections

How would i describe these few days? Well, i could say they were almost magical, haha but no, it was..well, i would say they were well spent. I admit i was too tired to concentrate to majority of the sermons, but i did get something out of the youth program about sexual purity, and yeah, i think it was really good, a wake up call if i may call it...a call to commitment and purity especially. Yeah...well i didn't quite make many new friends..knew most of them already anyway..but yeah, i probably still could have put in bigger effort but i don't know why i just didn't. But a good point is that i did become closer to my existing friends, so i guess that's a good point..unity in the body of Christ haha...yepz..just wanna say thank u guys and gals at the camp! You guys rawk~ See ya all in church this sunday, God bless!!!



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Monday, June 14, 2004
130604 - The Perfect Kind of Day

Today is the perfect day. Everything today is perfect.

Sunday is the day we all go to church to meet God and have fellowship with our brothers and sisters in Christ. And well, that's exactly what happened today. I woke up at 7am sharp despite having slept at 3am plus the night b4 talking on the phone. I admit it was quite hard to get up...i was really really tired. But somehow i managed to get up, walk over to the bathroom and switch on the water heater. Not long after that my brother went to bathe first. Then he left early for a rehearsal in church. And why today is different from other days is cuz i ate breakfast! Well, yes i did! I had slices of bread with canned tuna mayo, and a cuppa coffee. Well, it was a simple breakfast but it was good. So we left for church after that, and then yes, went for YF and all that. Worship was really good in YF today...one song struck out particularly (What a Friend We Have in Jesus) and yeah it tells us that in any time of difficulty, just turn to Jesus! Anyway, YF ended earlier than usual (9:55am) so we ended up hanging around in church and just walked around talking and joking around. Then went up for service...Pastor spoke quite a powerful message today about the "gray" areas in life, the areas which the Bible did not specify whether it was black or white but gray. I learned that it does not really matter, as long as what you do does not stumble your brother who may be weaker in faith. Pretty straightforward actually. After service we went for lunch around potong pasir. Had chicken rice. Returned to church shortly after lunch to attend some briefing for a musical by the church. It was quite boring i have to admit, but it was useful. That lasted about slightly more than an hour i guess? Then after that 8 of us (Me, Aaron, Andrew, Kev Mong, Caleb, Angel, Anna and Cheryl) went to PS to walk walk...we ended up eating cakes at Secret Recipe before heading to the basement to shop. I got me a pair of sunglasses..Oakley imitations but what the hey, they look good and cost much less! Yeah..then took a bus home.



Dinner - My friends at Amici msg me just now while i was at PS asking me to come hang out with them once they knocked off from work. Wasn't confident bout my parents letting me go out..cuz they know by the time i get home it'll be around after midnite? So anyway, persuaded my parents to bring our family to dine at my workplace Hahaha..crafty rite?? Got outerior motive. But it wasn't exactly an easy decision too...throughout the whole time at the restaurant i was a lil scared that my mom or my bros will screw up or embarass me. But no, again i misjudged them (notty me). Things went just fine. Was so so surprised to see the flowers and the balloon at our reserved table..i was like (uh-oh i hope no bday song) haha..what did we eat? Well we had Bruschetta, Fritto Misto Mare, and i had linguine vongole. Aaron had linguine veg, Andrew had spag boscaiola, Dad had fett smoked salmon, and mom had chicken primavera (my fav)...and yep..we ate. Was told later on that they wanted to give me a heart-shaped tiramisu on the house but since i was so impatient and ordered one, they decided to charge it to my bill LOLx!!! So far i'm very VERY grateful for all my friends who were there and who planned the surprise. I was really REALLY surprised after dinner when my parents left, cuz we went to PGP and they again surprised me with tiramisu that they baked!!! Haha u guys rawk! We had banana flavoured tiramisu, strawberry, and choc and raisins. All were good believe me, and i enjoyed them very very much~ Then we had red wine LOL...now i'm no drinker okay. Just cuz i had lotsa white wine to drink that time doesn't mean i'm a good drinker, cuz i'm not. We had red wine today and it was...well hard??? I dunno how to describe it, but it was really too strong for my liking haha..or maybe i'm just not used to it yet? Maybe once i drink more haha. Ate tiramisu, then played tai tee. Haha..we were all acting drunk (tho we weren't) and like laughing and joking and having the time of our lives. Yeah..and all of us dared each other to drink down one shot red wine, which we all did and well..haha i wish we did this earlier, cuz we realised it tasted much better than just letting the wine linger in ur mouth! Haha..but all in all i had a very very good time guys, and i really really appreciate what u guys did for me.



You know this kinda reminds me a lot of my life in Melb last time. I had a bunch of very very good friends, and we did everything together, as well as crazy crazy dares..and yeah, very similar characteristics, but no, none of those guys will ever be forgotten or replaced, just like the few of u whom i've met at Amici. Let's hope our friendship lasts at least till many many MANY years later! In fact, let's try to let it last 4EVA!!! Hahaha...



signing out peeps...



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Sunday, June 13, 2004
I'm sorry, I misjudged you...

To all who reads this, i have something to say.



Today i had an argument with my parents and i have said a lot of hurtful words to them. As i type this now, we are all one happy family, all 4 of us (Aaron still out at PS) sitting around in the livingroom, my dad and i playing the guitar, my mom sitting down and listening to us, and my other bro using the computer. All enjoying each other's company.



I am so happy to be in this family and i love my family very very much. Thank you guys...you rocks!



Oh yah by the way, we're all having durians now :)



out.



whipped cream? Just a bit lah...

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Saturday, June 12, 2004
STORY: Two Best Friends

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:



TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.



They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:



TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.



The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."



LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.





They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to appreciate them,

a day to love them,

but then an entire life to forget them.





Jesus said,

"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command." John 15:12-14





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120604 - East Coast Park

Got up to a rough start again this morning..it was just ugly. I was pulling a long papaya face the whole of lunch time..and just glaring angrily at everyone. Of course there was a cause to this...i don't have pms so pls don't think i got this out of nowhere. I do not wish to mention anyone's name bcos i have already forgive this person.



Anyway, didn't go for the kayaking thing organised by my church YF..sorry folks haha..but i did drop by east coast park just in time to help them keep the kayaks haha..and well, i was still in a bit of a black face then, but it was slowly wearing off. Actually real reason why i went on down to the beach is cuz we decided to have our discipleship course there in the lush nature. So okay, class started and all and i was very touched that my brothers there were so caring for me, they noticed my upsetness and they prayed for me and all. Thanks guys, you guys rock! Yeah..then after that quite a few of us went out for dinner near to parkway parade, one of thos hawker centres. Food was kinda expensive and not fantastic...$4 for select chinese food 1 meat, 1 veg and 1 otah. Quite ex rite?? Anyway thanked God for the food liao so i shan't complain anymore. And then from there my day just brightened and all in all, i had a whole lotta fun and fellowship! I had a really good time. Later on Jon Yang dropped me back all the way home so i'm very grateful for that. All those in the car with me (Eugene, Jon Yang, Charlotte, Janna, Sam Jr), you guys rock! Haha...



Neways, see u guys tmr in church. Have a pleasant day peeps!



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Love & ANGER

Anger eats you up like a disease. It's a mix of impatience, bitterness and unforgiveness, and it can last for hours at a time. Do you think i have sever anger management problems?? Well maybe, but i don't care. I don't freakin care...nobody cares. Have i got the worse parents in the world??? At the moment, yes. Each morning when i hear my mother's voice it makes me wanna puke..it makes me annoyed and irritated..it's like an itch that never goes away. Each time i hear her nag my head just wants to explode..i clench my fists in raw fury holding back my brain from bursting...



Saturday, 12 June 2004, 12pm



Mom: (shouts) Quick lah! Everyone's waiting for you..everytime sleep so late then wake up so late, then make everyone wait for you to take your own sweet time go and bathe and then bathe until so long! Keep holding everyone back...



Me: (shouts back) Coming lah!...



WTF...stress stress...someone better gimme anti-anxiety pills...or maybe sleeping pills would be better...i'll pop a few pieces in my mouth and sleep for a couple of days...or maybe i won't even wake up if complications arise...why not?? Where is the love man? Let's make love not war...HA! What a load of Bullcrap...nobody loves each other in my damn family so why bother??? Donno what kahoot crap place i'm living in...i think everyone's better off not talking then talking...i mean i'd rather have silence than have everyone talking and end up picking up a gun and shooting each other down.



People, where is the love? Deep in my heart i'm injured somewhere...but i've absorbed so much of this my heart is starting to harden and grow immune to all these insults, all these nagging...



I have nothing more to say.



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110604 - My Favourite Mistake

Got woken up today by a phonecall...what could be more annoying than that??? "Ahem hello?"...trying not to sound as if i was asleep when he called. Anyway it was my brother on the phone..was heading home with my mom and asked if i wanted any food to eat then they could buy it back for me. They ended up not buying the food afterall and i helped myself to 2 packets of Myojo no MSG instant noodles with some leftover chicken meat from yesterday..and oh yes, added an egg as well. Tasted quite alrite...but anything tastes good when you're hungry anyway. Spent the rest of the hot and lazy afternoon doing a tiny bit of QT and internet surfing...and hours and hours of minesweeper too! Talk about being lame but...it was fun lah anyway. Ended up playing until 0515pm where i was to be at work by 0530pm. Immediately switched off the comp and groomed myself and rushed to work. Not bad lah...was late for only 5 mins! *pats own back*

Work at the restaurant was okay. Elvin was in a bad mood so he started bossing everyone around and pulling a long papaya face and making everyone upset. Maybe he got his *ahem* pms? Kk forget i said that! But seriously!!! I wonder what made him so upset about...so anyway, the crowd came in one after the other as the night went on, and it was quite busy. But all in all, i think the evening went quite okay. Good job guys! Teamwork rocks!!! Hahaha...madfish...anyway yea...chef didn't cook for us today, but we did get to nick on some special italian bread thing..can't remember what it's called but it was quite good..it had some cheesy taste and was rather sweet. I realised the chef has a very sweet tooth...even the red bean soup he made for us today was a bit too sweet. Don't get me wrong, i totally appreciate a light meal to ease my hunger..it's just that i spose it would have been more enjoyable if the taste was "just right" rather than too much of something. But all in all, i still think the chef is an excellent cook!

Neways, went straight home after work today cuz my dad came back from Sabah this evening while i was working. Very glad to have him back home safely, and i could really see that he has had an enjoyable and fulfilling time there doing community stuff for the villagers. Also very grateful for the souvenirs he got for us! Haha...nice original adidas jerseys and lotsa stuff to eat...can't wait to see some of the photos he took as well!



My Favourite Mistake - Today, i spoke to God asking Him to help me to talk to my boss on how to get back the salary he owes me. As usual, i did one small teeney-weeney bit and He did the rest. I got back almost 37 hours of work payment! God is good. It came as a bit of a surprise when things went so smoothly and the amount that i recovered shocked me. I'm so glad that this mistake made me realise that i should always depend on God in every circumstance! This truly is my favourite mistake! Lol...



Neways, it's almost 0430am now...am getting tired, so will update ya another time. God bless ya'll...



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Friday, June 11, 2004
Your Unfailing Love

(c) Hillsong Music Australia



When the darkness fills my senses

When my blindness keeps me from Your touch

Jesus come

When my burden keeps me doubting

When my memories take the place of You

Jesus come



And i'll follow You there

To the place where we meet

And i'll lay down my pride

As You search me again



Your unfailing love

Your unfailing love

Your unfailing love over me again





This song means a lot to me, cos it reminds me that whichever situation or trial i am in, His unfailing love is always there to pull me through. In His word He has promised that these trials are meant to teach us and help us to mature, and that He will never put us through something we cannot handle. God is merciful, God is good.



I hope anyone who is reading this will be encouraged by this. God bless you.



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why are my blog entries always super super long??? I talk a lot man....

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100604 - It's a demanding world

my dear dear momma woke me at 11.20am today..but after she left my room, i ended up sleeping till 12.20pm Hahaha..so bad of me but well, i was dead beat! Anyway what does it matter?? Till this day, i still dun quite understand why my parents are so "niao" bout me sleeping late and waking up late...i'm so not a day person..can't achieve much when the sun is up haha..and besides, i'm not even schooling or anything so what does it matter??? Haiz...over-protective parents? maybe...anyway, followed my mom to bras basah complex for lunch..we had no choice but to go to Jack's Place to eat cuz i needed to use tht toilet Haha..can u imagine?? Going there just cuz of the toilet?? Haha nah..it's quite okay lah..the food is nice and quite affordable so yeah..and remember the day b4 i had a lotta wine to drink?? Well, i didn't get drunk that day or even tipsy, but the day after that (today), that's when it all kicked in. No i didn't puke, but i think i got the feeling of a slight hangover in my tummy...like diarrhoea..and erm..dunno if i should say this but..it was slightly greenish in colour?? EEEEEWWWW...it was kinda like white wine colour LOL..hence the conclusion it was the wines that caused it. Anyway ahem..after lunch, went to art friend to get some art stuff, then headed to swee lee music to check out the guitars. They got quite good variety there, but the prices for a relatively good one tend to be a bit high. Didn't spend very long there...i mean c'mon, i'm with my mom there! It's not as if i was with friends cuz if i was then i could spend hours there! But anyway yea...went to tecman after that..flipped thru some books and all..as usual, didn't buy anything haha...and then went to popular bookstore after that..didn't buy anything either haha...Then after that my mother dropped me straight to work. Ate a little sth first...then after that went to amici. Half the restaurant was already set for dinner, so setting it up was a little faster - FINALLY elvin helping out a little bit. Haha..but i am grateful hehe..was folding the napkins when i decided and felt like i should talk to God, to ask Him to be my strength. And well, i asked Him to help me with talking to the boss bout my pay and all. Was sitting at table 11 folding the napkins and just talking to "myself"..well God lah..and then yeah, as willie was walking out from his office, i decided to ask him about my paycheck. And i told him the missing dates like how many times i came during the lunch shift and worked the full day and all..and i also told him i came once at 3pm just to help him do some filing and he even reminded me that i came TWICE to do that! I mean like wow~ God is...effective??? Well what i meant was..if you ask God for water, He'll give you rain...He'll give u more than u could ever need..He knows my full name, my nick name, my this and my that and even the number of hairs on my head! Beautiful God, wonderful saviour. I know for sure, all of may days are held in Your arms, crafted into Your prefect plan...then as usual, liz came rushing in at 6pm LOL :) and then yea..there were already customers at 545pm actualli...but yea..today's crowd was quite manageable..except for 2 cases of demanding customers - hence the title of today's entry, "It's a demanding world." So okay, this ang moh family came in, from dunno somewhere in europe lah cuz of the accent and all...3 pax in all but they just went to sit at the 6 pax table..like okay. it was early in the evening so it wasn't so bad. But the worse part was that the guy..big tough guy was in a horrible mood. Demanded a tuna pizza which wasn't on the menu, plus some other stuff. Now normally for our restaurant, we would prefer to serve certain foods together, so that no-one eats alone. So, there was that guy's garlic bread, and it was at the counter waiting for the other dishes to be ready so that they could be served together. As i happened to be next to the counter, and that guy..wah he asked why i'm not doing anything when his bread was ready! I mean talk about being impatient!!! And he didn't have to be so rude u know..like implying that i was lazy and couldn't be bothered to serve? I mean we have our own procedures here..and besides, it wasn't even my section so how would i know where that plate of garlic goes??!! Simply unreasonable..like sure he may have had a bad day but..why vent his anger on us?? We're just innocent amigos hahaha..yeah..we all think he was really demanding..don't want to mention other things he said like "scold ur chef for me" cuz they were all too unpleasant...totally ruined my day. But after a while i forgot about it. And then later on ah, wah table 12..this lady and guy..i seriously don't know their actual age, especially the ooman. Her dressing is like late 20's kind of dressing, but her FACE! Wah..like 35 over yrs old..later on i found out why. She smokes! Yep..so like they sat at table 12, and just cuz they couldn't wait very long, they had to ask me why their baked oysters took so long to come. Like that's totally fine actually, cuz i understand what it is like to wait so long on an empty stomach but still...why the long papaya face??? Then halfway through eating, they can just go to the next table..the balcony table and just sit there and smoke away! I mean..2 ppls taking up 2 whole tables?? That's really selfish! Typical singaporean ah lian i tell ya..dunno lah, dun want to judge such ppls, but such ppls just get on my nerves! Okay once they finished their smoke, they still left their stuff at the balcony table and went back in to sit and their old table. So like..they're hogging 2 perfectly good tables, and they used both sets of cutlery and napkins!!! I mean..haiyoh...simply very poor table manners...they think the place is like their home..very selfish..they don't even care about other customers at the restaurant. While smoking, still left the door open for everyone to smell their "aging formula smoke" hence her oldies look haha..and like they'll open the door again once u try to close it? I think it's cuz they wanted the aircon...they kept saying so hot so hot so stuffy..can on the fan? can switch off the balcony lights cos it is hot? I mean what rubbish!!! How self-centred..totally uncaring of other restauranters...and simply demanding!!! Haiz..but badness aside, we managed to rush our closing duties and leave amici by 1030pm so that was good. We made our way down to NUS hostel where liz and chris stay, and we went to their restaurant kitchen (fuzion) to do our tiramisu!!! Wish we had a camera then cuz we did so many fun stuff and all..even played pool! Learned quite a bit about pool..like where to hit the ball to make it go where..very interesting..things i never knew! hahaha..okay it was a tiny bit upsetting that our tiramisu didn't turn out well..not so 'award-winning' after all huh? Haha..but we still had fun...we had mad eggs!!! Made by me lol..i took the leftover egg from the tiramisu and added lots and lots of stuff in it. Chris asked what i added in it but i told him, he should be asking what i didn't out in it haha..cuz i added almost everything on the sauce shelf, and mostly fiery stuff like tobasco and paprika and pepper and everything spicy..which is why we wanted to call it mad eggs! haha..but taste wise, it really wasn't bad at all..the spicyness was just right and well..i was hungry anyway and everything tastes nice when you're hungry so....yep! Then we took a cab home and that ends my day...would love to fill in my blog with greater detail but look at the time...another time maybe.

But one thing i want anyone who reads this to know, and that is that Life is Beautiful, and Jesus makes beautiful things out of any screwed-up life! Yesss..just talk to Him and you'll never regret that conversation! Neways, you guys at amici are great! Luv ya guys lots and may all our dreams, wishes and ambitions come true!



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Thursday, June 10, 2004
090604..i went wine tasting!!!

how do i describe this day??? Well, the night before i didn't catch any sleep until 7am today...u're prolly wondering what i've been doing up at this time in the morning rite? Well..see by the time i got home from work and makan, it was around 1 or 2am liao..then i went online, i chatted with my cute and funky JUNE till about 3am plus..then i suddenly decided to msg Jasper tellin him to pray for poor david and his finger. My sms ended up waking him up from his slumber and we ended up chatting on the phone till around 6am..so that's like 3 hrs??? I seriously didn't notice we talked that long at all!! It's so Wow...i mean...we were both tired and sleepy but we just yakked and yakked about any and every topic under the sun...we even talked about the end times and the apocalypse and the rapture and it was like...i dunno..scary?? Yea it was...then yeah, was around 6am (still dark) and then i had this 21 day QT consistency challenge. So well, had no choice but to do it, even tho i was like totally tired and stuff...but yeah, seriously, i actually didn't feel like going to bed at that time! Yeah it's true..in fact i was tempted to challenge myself to a one day w/o sleep marathon...how crazy would that be?? Cuz like today, after i finished my QT ard 7 plus (sun was up liao) i went to bed and woke up around 12.20pm..so that's about slightly more than 5 hrs of sleep? Yea..after that went Bukit Panjang for lunch, then after that dropped by my mom's workplace (i ain't no momma's boy) and then after that went straight to amici for my very first staff outing!!! Yay!!! Like okay i didn't think it would be such a fun event at first, but i was totally wrong! So okay, willie brought us (me, Liz, David & chef) in his car to some place in chinatown..i think it's called china square central...yah..then some place in it called Vil'age, and it like totally follows the concept of marche! they better hope they are a branch out of marche cuz if the name was changed to marche i seriously wouldn't notice any difference! Haha anyway, went there for wine tasting! Yes, and tho i'm sorta almost underaged, i still went and yeah..i still got to taste some wines. They were all German wines..the event was called "I love (heart symbol for love) RIESLING" and yea it was quite an experience! The wines were arranged in a row, starting from bitter to sweet wines. So like i received my own personal glass to use, and i started on my first glass. At first i didn't know what to expect out of this. Last thing i ever want is to get drunk! Haha..so if i remembered correctly, i didn't think much about the wines at first, but then they started getting better, sweeter and well..i think i slowly learned how to appreciate German white wines haha...some wine brands present were Gunderloch, Dr Burklin Wolf, Reinhold Haart, Georg Breuer, Robert Weil, and Grans Fassion. Some tasted "fruity" with little weird yet yummy hints of strange enuf, other fruits such as pineapple, apple, pear or even honeydew! Amazing isn't it?? They explained that the flavour resembles the other fruits, which was quite true, and it could be because of many many reason like maybe the ingredients of the soil and fertilizer and all. Very interesting. Total there were about 15 bottles of wine, and i tried nearly every one of them! Like..wow it's not that i don't want to stop taking so much, it's just that the wines..they tasted much better than i thought! I mean it was really really hard to stop! I must admit k..they were good wines, and even though i don't drink (honest), i think i'm not a bad drinker either..meaning to say that i can handle this kinda stuff pretty well...i mean, my face didn't turn red at all..no signs of tipsyness..or was there? Nah...but seriously, this was the biggest amount of alcohol i have ever ever consumed before. Quite an experience!

After that the bunch of us went back to the restaurant..reached there around 530pm. Did the usual, set the restaurant up for the dinner crowd. And whoa..i was WAY tired! Like..so little sleep plus i drank quite a generous amount of wine...it was really difficult lah..there were nice customers as well as more demanding ones but all in all, i was glad the day went by. Chef John! haha nice guy..he cooked us all chicken primavera pasta...whoa it was GOOD i tell ya! Well, that's one of my favourite pastas they have at amici anyway..got to know this pasta cuz one time around 4 weeks ago when i first joined amici, chef cooked this for us, and i fell in love with it! haha..well u know what i mean lah haha..it was really nice. Yeah..then after work, as usual, didn't really feel like coming home yet, so me, chris, david and elizabeth, we went to 7-eleven, got a Walls cheesie blueberry ice-cream (It's VERY GOOD U KNOE??)<-- personal joke..as well as a cup of chendol ice-cream and a bottle of pokka green tea..big bottle. We didn't think we'd be able to finish that much ice-cream at first...cuz we were a bit full of pasta and wine haha..but we ate and ate and ate anyway, and well, we finished everything! Haha..we all agreed that the blueberry ice-cream was REALLY GOOD haha..and the chendol ice-cream was good too..and since we were on the topic of wines, we joked bout a wine called "mad fish"...like what a crazy name and all? and then we put our hands together like a fish then made it go all over like a real mad fish! Farni man...we laughed and laughed and laughed till out tummies hurt..it's as if we got drunk on wine 6 hours late haha...but i had a lotta fun, talking and joking with my colleagues and all..and singing too! Haha..sang that Amici forever song..like "friends for life not just a summer or a spring"..think it's called amigos sampapapapapapapa whatever lah..wait for liz to tell me the real spelling. And yeah, our amici song, sung to the tune of barry manilow's Mandy...the lyrics go: I remember amici, the name sounds so funny. Walked into the shop, saw a flower pot, there we made a stop, looking for a job, and made us sign a meaningless form, the whole place was so warm. And Willie Tan he smiled, made his MOMMA proud, made us go so wild, dadadada oh amici, when your storeroom is oh so smelly, and ur manager's so lazy...and so on and so on...haha will always remember that song. Maybe one day we could complete the song?? Dunno lah..then after that, as usual, had to go home..cuz momma was calling hahaha...but yeah, it was already late by then. So okay, got home, did my usual stuff..bathe, do this, do that, chat MSN here and there...ended up sleeping at 5am. Smart right?....



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Wednesday, June 09, 2004
080604

Work today was fine. Was happening at times and was boring at times..look at the time i'm writing this..u expect me to recall every single detail and blurt it all here??? HAH! Not this time bloggie..but know what? I'm just gonna do something important here...at work today, David got himself a real brutal slice on his finger *ouch* The guy could have lost his finger..details later, but for now, i say this prayer...



Father in heaven,

i pray for my friend David who has gone through a tough time with a deep gash on his finger, causing him much agony, as well as the inability to work. Father this worries him as it isn't good for his pocket, and the pain is excruciating. But LORD i know that You have a plan out of this, something for him to learn, something for him to experience, and i pray that You will let him know that You are with him every step of the way to a speedy recovery. May he learn to have faith in You through this experience, and that he'll get to know You and receive You. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.



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Tuesday, June 08, 2004
down at the restaurant

Hmmm...kinda sad, Jasper stopped working at the restaurant liao. I'm coping well..alrite i guess :) just that now there's less people to talk to and more work for me to do! Am i happy? Well, i can take it two ways...i can either choose to be happy and do everything for GOD or i can sulk and complain and pull a long papaya face and be unpopular and still end up doing the chore anyway. The choice is simple - the latter option! HAhaha no lah kidding kidding...of course the first one lah...duh~



Neways, i'm sure GOD has a plan for me there so...yeah.



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i miss you...

Starting time according to my clock: 3:01am



If your name is listed here, i miss you (at time of typing)

1) Dad

2) June



That's all for now. My life is so different w/o you. I miss you so so much...



This song is dedicated to you.



Drop In The Ocean Michelle Branch



Love took me by the hand

Love took me by surprise

Love led me to you

And love opened up my eyes



And I was drifting away

like a drop in the ocean

And now I realize that

nothing has been as beautiful

As when I saw heaven's skies

In your eyes

In your eyes



And every time I drift away

I lose myself in you

And now I see I can be me

In everything I do



'Cause I was feeling as small

as a drop in the ocean

And now I realize that

nothing has been as beautiful

As when I saw heaven's skies

In your eyes

In your eyes



Love took me by the hand

Love took me by surprise



And I was drifting away

like a drop in the ocean

And now I've realized that

nothing has been as beautiful

As when I saw heaven's skies

In your eyes

In your eyes



Ending time according to my clock: 3:09am



i'm tired now. Goodnight.



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life...

What does it mean to nag?



Oxford Dictionary says it as:

(verb) persistently criticize or scold; (often + at) find fault or urge, esp. continually; (of pain) be persistent.



Webster's New World Dictionary says it as:

1 To annoy by continual scolding, faultfinding, complaining, urging, etc.

2 To keep troubling, worrying, etc. [nagged by thought] to urge, scold, find fault, etc.



American Heritage Dictionary says it as:

v. nagged, nag-ging, nags

1 To annoy by constant scolding, complaining or urging

2 To torment persistently, as with anxiety or pain





Need i say more?

My life is so nagged WAhahaha..*fakes a weak laughter*...i don't want to think about it...thinking about it only makes me more angry. In fact, why have i found myself stuck in the habit of blogging?!! Blogging listens to my problems, but it also spits it back at me as if to help me remember the rough times in my life. What can i learn from blogging? I don't know...but the feeling of throwing your woes and sorrows to something that will listen and not argue back is too hard to avoid. I need it to cushion my fall...to hear my cry...to...to...whatever lah...it's full of crap.



On Sunday, Eugene (Tan) has been commenting that i seemed sad...sadder than usual. I can't explain it. I'm happy being around my friends, i totally enjoy their company. But there's this little part of me that's "affected". On one side of me i'm really happy, laughing out loud and chillin with my friends...but deep down somewhere in me, hidden and unidentifiable is something that's eating my joy. It's like a cancer..i don't know where it is, i don't know where it's affecting. All i know is that it's there somewhere like a man-eating virus. I don't know what it is. I still can't identify what it is. I'm lost in the middle of the Pacific ocean with no compass for direction....



So like...i try to stay away from HOME as much as possible. See, that's the biggest problem with today's youths - they stay away from home too much. They'd rather hang around doing nothing along the hot hot streets than be at home with aircon and this and that. BUT WHOSE FAULT IS IT??? It will be totally unfair to say that it is the parents. However, it would be equally unfair to say it is the child's fault. As a matter of fact, it takes two hands to clap, and slightly bias to my own status, i feel it has got to do more with the parents than the child. Why? It is because the only factor that could make a child think that the outside is better than home is cuz there must be something about their home they want to be away from, be it person or posession. Don't want to elaborate more cuz this is just a waste of time.



Personally, i love my family. I do. But sometimes it's hard to show, and when silly little things get on my nerves everyone gets all childish and proud and all and every single piece of history is raked up from the grave again and BOOM!!! Pearl harbour gets bombed all over again and lives are lost....



There i go again, babbling rubbish.



But work today was not bad tho...received my very FIRST paycheck! Yay! Haha..can't tell ya the amount tho haha..secret hehe...yeah, i pray that God will help me use the resources He gives wisely. Yeah..good ol David at the restaurant gave me some good food today. Business was a little slow today so he had time to make me a real mini pizza Haha..as in imagine a pizza the size of a coaster hahaha..cute! But a whole lot good ta eat! What else..got to taste some award-winning tiramisu, ate some really really good brownies, got stuff to drink here and there...very good lah...



Hmm...my sadness...could it be a conflict between life in and out of church??? Like restaurant vs. church? Like i dunno...maybe...maybe not...ah whatever lah. Another story for another time.



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P.S. I had an ice mocha at Megabyte today...quite okay lah, but cannot compare to Starbucks! Haha...

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Sunday, June 06, 2004
060604

Sunday, 6th June 2004.

Carmael BP came to YF today. Previous post should've told u what a rough morning i've had...but i knew that all was going to be well, and everything turned out great! Okay, got to church and soon after, our guests started the worship. Can't recall what songs they sang, but i'll keep ya updated in another blog entry. Day was excellent in general, sat at McDonald's Potong Pasir with my bro, Aaron Chan, Angel Lim, Daryl Har and a little bit of Eugene Tan and Sam Jr. But after those 2 left, the rest of us had some "quality time" haha..just chatting and joking bout stuff that come along. It was really fun, taking a break from all the stress in life to just sit down and chill! Best part was getting to know my fellow brother and sista in Christ better, unity in the Body of Christ! Haha...

Anyway, sang this song in YF today which i thought was just BEAUTIFUL! And funny enough, the title of it is "Beautiful". Here goes...



Beautiful



Beautiful, beautiful

Jesus is beautiful

And Jesus makes beautiful

Things of my life



Carefully touching me

Causing my eyes to see

Jesus makes beautiful

things of my life



(C) 1982 Maranatha! Music

Dennis Cleveland



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Sunday morning before church...

Jon: Hi mom i'm here.

Mom: Jon you better become more teachable.

Jon: Mom i can't believe you still remember this from last night.

Mom: It is my duty as a mother to teach you..if i don't then no one else will.

Jon: Mom not now..you're totally killing my mood

Mom: (walks off)



Okay so? What do you think? Many of my friends' blogs state problems with their love life, problems with their friends....but mine? Well, i've got a problem with my mom. You read my previous post? Well, it seems like she has not forgiven me then...*sigh* oh well, can never understand the pattern of this world anyway. See...now my mood for church has somewhat dampened...



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P.S. Where's the coffee when you need one???



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Sunday morning...about yesterday night

I just realised my hopes of becoming a superstar became bust yesterday when i totally just just sat back and saw the rest of the country go for the Singapore Idol auditions. I dunno but i'm not exactly sour or bitter about the fact my mother said "no" bout me going to the auditions...i know she's protecting me from...embarassment??? And well to a certain extent she thinks i also don't have the time for this kind of stuff anyway so...yeah...mom if you're reading this (which you shouldn't be) then i just wanna say "thanks" for protecting me, for keeping my interests at heart in your own special way - Happy Belated Mothers' Day....



Haha this must be a joke. No it's not. Well..i don't know what to think but..lemme ask you sth...what do you get when two hot-tempered people with two very different opinions clash? Ans: One very big argument...only that the argument we had last night was a real petty one..it wasn't major or anything, but the bible says not to let the sun go down and still be in an argument (or sth like that)...i mean, what can i do anyways?! It was already late late late at night, the sun was down way long ago...i couldn't possible say "i'm sorry" cuz by the time i cooled down they already went to bed i mean...



Okay, that night i prayed that God would forgive me and that i myself will be forgiven. Forgive us our sins, as we forgive our debtors...you know sth? After taking part in that discipleship course, i can feel myself changing..as in i used to be much MUCH worse than i am right now (i'm not bad am i?) but...i used to have a whole different set of morals and way of life but now...i have to admit, that God is slowly changing me...changing my life, my attitude...my reaction towards my family, my hot-temper...my flaws in general i guess...i may still fall, i may still stumble. But overall, i know that God is there to pick me up again whenever i fall.



Thank you LORD for saving me. Amazing grace, how sweet the sound. That saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now am found. Was blind. but now i see.



Today's gonna be a good day...



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Saturday, June 05, 2004
oh yes...

Oh yah..i forgot to say in my previous post that i had a coffee today as well. No, it wasn't a mocha, but it was an ice cappuccino from Nooch. Not bad lah...



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050604

Today..nothing much lah..just recovering from my "nothing much" day yesterday haha..well no lah...yesterday was alrite...went to work as usual. Was a very very busy day. Jasper didn't come and considering that my manager is SO DARN LAZY, i had to take like half of the whole restaurant! Yes it was tiring and yes i was tired..cuz i'm not used to such heavy crowds alone...but i didn't think i did a bad job tho....cuz one i had a personal tip from one of the tables...$6 they gave...and then after that still got one more customer, a mother and her son, i took care of their table and after they left, they told my colleague Elizabeth to tell me that i was good! Hahaha so nice rite?? But no tip =p HAHAHA...nvm lah...everything i do, i do it not for money but FOR THE GLORY OF GOD! yeah...



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Thursday, June 03, 2004
020604

Had another caramel coffee jelly today...this is bad hahaha..really not good for health, i mean, all that sugar and caffeine?? Not good, not good. Well, slept at 6am the night before, so was really tired today. Woke up at around 12 plus..then had lunch. For lunch today my mom cooked some spaghetti with olive oil, bacon and mushrooms - an otherwise tasty meal if not for the saltiness..it was WAY too salty. But nonetheless, thanks mom! Really miss your cooking! Pls note, that is cooking flop of the day #1. So okay, went down to PS hoping to catch Shrek 2. Vesak day today, public holiday. So let's see..PS and public holidays just don't work! It was like way crowded, and just to get a parking lot took us close to 20 mins!!! My goodness!...haha so okay yeah..there were no tickets that day by the time we arrived there. Met 2 church friends there too! (Tong & Hong) and yea we chatted for a while and stuff..but not for long haha..then after that went to starbucks where i acquired my coffee drug haha...then well after that we went home with some groceries from carrefour. We got an eggplant, some potatoes, a roast chicken and 2 chicken sausage rolls. We sorta tried to grill the eggplant on the hotplate and then grill it again with the boiled potatoes...tried to follow my restaurant haha...but somehow just couldn't lah..so the entire meal was like...okay it wasn't all that bad. Just think shepherd's pie except with sliced eggplant, potatoes and pasta sauce. Pls note, cooking flop of the day #2. Haha..okay then like andrew tried to make this egg salad...just hard-boil the egg and add thousand island and mash it up. Sounds simple right? Well...that turned out to be cooking flop of the day #3. Eggs not hard enuf so the yolk made it a bit wet...nonetheless i actually enjoyed all the meals! haha...and then my mom dropped me to work. Reported to work at 6pm today so the restaurant would have been ready to accept diners by then. So yeah..just went with the flow and did my waiter thing. Very funny...the boss has some superstitious idea that whenever he plays a certain CD he'll get more diners. And to a certain extent it was kinda true. Business was really really slow yesterday despite the fact it was Vesak Day, a public holiday..he wasn't playing his lucky CD haha...the CD's called Voices, and the signature song in it is BARCELONA!!! Haha..(personal joke)..anyway so we suggested playing his lucky CD and then true enough, business started picking up!!! Haha..don't mean to support any form of superstition here but it was kinda weird and funny at the same time? Then this bunch of GAYS came in!!! AARRGGHH!! So irritating..they sat away from my section (thankfully) and they were all weird ppls! micture of chinese and ang mohs..and like eewww...one fella even touched his chest and said "lamb loin" when elizabeth read out the daily specials...sick rite?? and throughout the whole time they were talking about they gay stuff very loudly..and like making a nuisance and all...terrible terrible. Luckily they left me alone..well most of the time at least..i know one idiot there made a kissing sound at me..i like totally ignored it but at the same time..feels kinda violated? I mean...RESPECT man!!! but anyway, that CD sure was effective..and then of course we joked about his lucky CD after that haha...and then let's see...David the assistant chef cooked us his famous chicken wings (good stuff) and some chicken primavera pasta. It was gorgeous i tell ya...well i was hungry at the time anyway haha...so anything'a good. Then i told david the lame lame joke i learned in church the last week. First, "what do you call a fish with no i (eye)? A FSH! Hahaha lame. Then i asked what you call a deer with no eyes? Then he said deer dun have the letter i in it. Smart, but not the correct answer. The answer is a "no idea" as in no-eyed-deer haha lame rite??? Then last one..what did sushi A say to sushi B? Answer: "Wasabe"..as in Wassup-be..hahaha..totally lame. Neways..closed shop at around 11 plus...boss Willie took us out to MAKAN!!! Haha..so okay, Willie drove, elizabeth took the front seat (only girl mah..) and then me, jasper, david and chef john squeezed into the backseat of willie's Subaru Impreza..nice car..then we made our way to Geylang for DURIANS!!! Whoa! Willie's a fast driver and the car was so smooth we didn't quite notice the speed, but we got to geylang real quick. Even beat a stoopid youngster in his modified Civic to a small race haha...so okay, in all willie got us all 9 durians and 7 coconuts to share. Fantastic stuff! Now i know why they call em the king of the fruits haha. After the durians, Elizabeth Jasper David and i hopped into a cab and went to drop Liz off at NUS hostel. On the way there we were talkin bout Amaci stuff (again) and haha..david broke a flower pot just now and the plant in it was like potless and the soil spilled all out? So before we left the restaurant just now we all did an acting stunt. Boss willie saw the potless plant conspicuously stuck in the middle of where the electric fan used to stand..i mean how FUNNY!!! it was like totally comical??? Haha and willie asked who did it and we all acted blur and all..and he now thinks someone didn't want it and just threw it at his restaurant hahaha...it is actually his!!! okay okay..so yeah elizabeth thought we were all good actors..more like good liars haha..anyway we got off as well at NUS hostel and met up with our other "Amici Staff Rebel Council" member haha..he stays there too..and like he didnt work today so yeah...he missed out on the durian bit i guess but that's alrite. After that david jasper and i wanted to go off already..so we decided to walk back out to the main road. LOL i can really laugh at this man...instead of walking out of South Buona Vista road, i told them to walk the wrong way!!! Cuz it was so confusing anyway! So we ended up walking the wrong way!! OH NO! hahaha..but we all had a very good time. There was this coke can on the road and we were all like totally playing road soccer with that can! In the middle of the road!! FELT SO FREE! Of course it was around close to 2am then so..yeah not many cars..then we took off our shirts and shouted and sang and whoa...then we peeed in the drain LOL..haha yeah...the things guys do eh? hehe...so we realised we were walking the wrong direction after a while and like uh oh..so now how? we can't possibly turn back now rite? so walked and we walked and as we walked we talked about life and about all kinds of stuff..and guess where we ended up? PASIR PANJANG!!! yep we did..but it brought back lotsa old memories to me. Went past Pasir Panjang Hill Kindergarten which was my old kindy and like..wow the building hasn't changed at all! well slight alterations here and there but it was just the same!!! the carpark, the playground....i mean like wow..good memories man..and then walked past haw par villa and yeah..more memories. Then okay..we sorta gave up walking halfway cuz it was getting kinda late. So last resort, took a cab haha..and YES it was a very very long way out by cab, so imagine walking that. Okay, the cab dropped us at clementi central there..and then jasper went off with the cab back home. David and i we went to his palce for a while..david wanted to drop me off on his scooter..so like wow how can i refuse the offer? I never rode on one b4, and it was late and it would save me a lotta cab money! So like okay, he went up to get his keys but when we went down the bike wasn't there..so maybe his dad sent it for repairs? So that's the first trip from level 1 to level 22. Then we went back upstairs to drop the keys off. Then we headed down again - Second trip up and down 22 floors. Then he decided to drop me off..as in walk with me home lah..how nice rite?? Very thoughtful. So when we were about to leave the compound i asked him if he has a bicycle and like YES he did! and haha..third trip up to level 22 and down to get his bike. Pretty cool looking bike..an old and rustic looking BMX with standing poles at the back so david cycled and i stood at the back! FUN man! Cycled on the main road and all and yeah he cycled me back home haha..got him a drink and then he was on his way back. Got home around 3 plus. Fantastic day i tells ya. See it's not what happened that made the day so good but it's the people in it. Hey dudes at Amici Italian Restaurant, you rock! and i appreciate everything u done for me and all the food u let me eat LOL...



anyway, Psalm 118:24 "This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it."



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Wednesday, June 02, 2004
the first of june (010604)

YUMMMM! Had my Caramel coffee jelly again today! it makes me oh so happy hahaha..well may day..how did it start? Well, can't wake up from the wrong side of the bed cuz of a wall (thankfully) so my day was pretty alrite, if not pretty good! Well a day that God makes is supposed to be good anyway! And besides, He made every single day!!! Anyway back to topic, woke up at 12 noon *RATS* one more hour to get ready for work. Was working the afternoon shift..or rather was supposed to work the full day, 1pm to 11pm. So yea, switched on the heater and cooked instant mee for lunch..quite nice..Myojo no MSG sesame oil chicken flavour...plus i added a half-boiled egg and it was HeAvEnLy!!! Haha..no lah..but i had fun with myself re-enacting a scene on Japan Hour where the ooman (woman) eating made all those mouth-watering sounds..haha..i do amuse myself sometimes lol..so yea..rushed to work and was late a few minutes but oh well..couldn't be helped..then okay, took care of the lunch crowd..and by 3pm everything was cleared. NOthing much to do then..so just went around doing my own stuff here and there, passing the time..then me and the chef had a conversation about coffee! Haha so i said the coffee we get from the machine here is lousy..and he agreed..he says it's too diluted and quite lousy lah..so then i said since there's like nothing much for me to do here, why not i go to starbucks and get some coffee? and he's like here's $10 go indulge yourself Haha..and of course get him one as well lah..HAHA boy he had no idea one caracoffeejelly grande costs $6 LOL..so yea, chipped in my 2 bucks as well..what a deal! Haha..then drank my coffee as i worked and all..then around 4pm plus..they got me to run to the hawker centre to buy some food..5 packets of duck rice for all of us. YUMMMM..haha it was realli gud! What a slack day it has been so far..can't believe i'm being paid to do this! LOLx!!! Haha..kk, after eating, it was time to start work..set the restaurant ready for dinner..then my friends from the restaurant came..david and jasper..nice dudes..so yea..did our thing, then as the dinner crowd came in, we just went with the flow, and everything was PURFect! Haha..even met one lady..can't remember what her name was..Joyce i think haha..but yea, spoke to her on the phone the day before and i booked her reservation for 2 pax..was her birthday mah..haha..and like she asked my name on the phone yesterday so yea..today i intro myself while showing her to her table haha..then something funny happened! Well not funny lah..i didn't laugh but anyway, when i went to serve their table mushroom soup, i caught them praying!!! And not just a short "GRACE! Quick let's eat!" but rather quite a long prayer..so passionate with hand actions and all..i stood by the table at least a whole minute and a half waiting for them to finish praying, then i put the soup down haha..i commented on their prayer tho..i said, "that's quite a long prayer" and smiled ;)..then i cleared myself and told them i go to church as well and all..and of course, nice aunty joyce asked which one and i said Calvary Baptist and she was like, "OH i used to go there too!" and so i was quite pleased! haha..she asked if i knew Siew Yuet or Kok Chuan or Dennis Yew or aunty Margaret and stuff..yeah knew them all haha..and then i said, "enjoy your meal" and scampered off haha..then well..since it was her birthday the restaurant crew had to sing her a b'day song as the cake came out so yeah..so used to singing so me and my crew we just did our "thang" haha..quite fun lah...okay so yesh, was also kinda hungry. Felt so sick halfway thru working. Imagine feeling really REALLY hungry and stuffing ur tummy with water to be "less hungry" but ended up feeling bloated and all..well i got that. And i puked total twice. As in real puke haha..all my duck rice and starbucks came out with bile and stuff..regurgitated first time, then before i could breathe again, my stomach regurgitated another load of vile bile and in total, 3 loads of bile b4 i could breathe again...it was really bad. it even came out my nose!!! talk about being gross here, but I JUST COULDN'T HELP IT haha..so yeah..felt SOOOOO much better after puking. Then okay..day at the restaurant ended..kitchenhand friend david got a buncha bananas from the nearby market..i mean like..talk about being comical! haha..but it was nice lah..and along the way got to munch on dried cuttlefish haha..what else ah? oh yah..5 of us, me jasper david chris and elizabeth went out after that in search of a durian stall haha..cuz we found one last time but anyway it was too late tonite..and they guy closed shop liao..so went to 7-eleven (again) haha, got some peanuts and a bottla rootbeer..sat down somewhere and chatted and chatted and chatted..and this time, we didn't quite gossip bout our boss..in fact well we merely expressed our dissatisfaction about the job cuz of his bad management...like okay, poor staff welfare. $5/hour is actually quite generous, considering the other places around holland v pay only $3.80/hr..but they give meals lah..and like we came up with this crazy idea of holding a staff meeting the day after to pour out all our dissatisfactions about the job..our verdict came up to not a problem with the salary, but rather that they should provide meals so that we ain't so...weak? haha..and end up puking out our gastric juices like i did..but yeah..we'll see what happens tmr lah..will pray about it too! =] haha..then yeah..chatted and then like while walking home, we all started singing..like flying without wings or mandy or silly chinese songs like..liang zhi lao hu (2 tigers) pao de kuai, pao de kuai (running fast), yi zhi mei you wei ba (one w/o a tail) yi zhi mei you er duo (one w/o ears), zhen qi guai x2 (how weird). Hahaha..what a weird song!! Haha..didn't realise how silly it is until i type it out lol...yeah..but yeah, at least managed to interest david to come to my church to cook us a meal! haha..he'll become a great chef one day man..haha david if you're reading this, i wish u all da best to your ambitions man! and to all our hopes and dreams that we shared, wish u all all the best! Yea...



whoa..how long is this blog entry? haha fulla crap...



yesterday (310504) was good as well. Had lotsa food to eat at the restaurant like linguine vongole (YUM) and pizza calzone (folded pizza) which was simply gorgeous..and the usual..some bread and aglio olio..haha nice..yea..



LIFE IS GOOD....



Final words, just live ur life with GOD inside, u won't regret one moment of it. Live ur life for GOD, for GOD!



Peace out...



whipped cream? Yes/NO WAY HOSAY!!!

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Tuesday, June 01, 2004
what to say?

Firstly, just wanna say that i have claimed ownership of this blog space. Many thanks to Angel for creating and setting it up for me. Appreciate it. And secondly, i just wanna say that if there's anything going on between friends, sometimes it is best to think before speaking and controlling what we say. And if anyone needs a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear, just send me an sms. I won't take sides, you are all my friends. Take care, and forgive and forget. To sum it up, LOVE one another.



Peace out.



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