Monday, August 25, 2008
i feel like a little fish inside a big big pond... so huge, dark and lonely, so vulnerable.
i know it's one thing to grow into it, but it's another when you can't fast enough.
i don't need your sympathy, i just need you to stand by and watch.
and lest i should fall...
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Monday, June 09, 2008
Revisitations
I have not been enjoying the past few weeks at all.
Just with life; my coming and going, etc. It's just hard to find the joy, running around, studying for exams, worrying about things, people, even ministry. Where has the
faith gone? I just felt dry; in need of a fresh touch from the Lord.
This season in my life is a season of
revisitations. Just as new wisdom is gained, so do old habits return.
This afternoon in church during worship, I had the revisitation of a vision that I had last year, that I was like a tree planted by the waters (Psalm 1). This is all good, and God's faithfulness once again never failed me, except that
this time, with the nutrient-rich soil by the stream of living water, now there cultivates in the good soil, weeds, which steal and deprive the tree from all these nutrients.
Okay, weeds can't be good. But clearly it seems my life is getting a little distracted, my eyes shifting away from what really matters, even shifting away from God, seeking results without first thinking about the process.
Old lessons all forgotten, so typically human.
LORD I pray that You will continue to be my pillar of cloud by day and pillar of fire by night, that I won't take even a single step ahead of You, nor lag a single step behind.
And a lesson I learnt last year, "Even when we are not ready, He is".
Lord, do Your
thang.
12:35 PM |
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Sunday, June 01, 2008
The Heart of Life - John MayerI hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
so turn off your tears and listen
Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it wont all go the way
it should
but I know the heart of life is good
You know it's nothin' new
bad news never had good timing
then the circle of your friends
will defend the silver lining
Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it wont all go the way
it should
but I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good, I know it's good
oh i know it's good
9:53 PM |
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Saturday, May 24, 2008
Super Coffee
So funny... Aaron Tan and I were at Carousel with some girls who were looking for girly gifts, and they went into a bra shop. Aaron followed after them and I was like. WHAT?!! Don't know why, but I went in after much deliberation, and you have no idea how embarrassed I was!! Bras to my left, bras to my right, bras to my front, bras to my back. But yeah, finally got Aaron out of bra-land and we headed for Gloria Jeans coffee.
I ordered a (most satisfying) white choc mocha, and when they asked for a name to go with the order, I decided that I would not use my real name, but just for the fun of it, I said my name was "Hiro" (: and the very friendly barista smiled and wrote as she repeated, "Hee-ro". I smiled back.
Looks like the hero's won his coffee! (:
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
His Favour
I move in His favour.
I live in His favour.
I walk in His favour.
How I wish everyday could be like today - highly successful.
I dun recall the last time I could describe a day as highly successful, but today was just different. I guess it's partly due to the fact that everything turned out well, from my Digital Media exam to my Screen&Sound studio recording. But it makes me wonder, if my day did not turn out like today, if every traffic light turned red on me, and every rain cloud flew over me, will I still be able to say that
'this is the day that the LORD has made; I will rejoice and be glad in it'?
Guess I have much to learn still, but i'm glad my God is a loving God, who is mindful of me (:
Well, tomorrow poses another challenge, LORD, but how will I react...? Here we go...
1:12 AM |
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
the power of prayer
God has never failed to amaze me. Just perfect, He's such an awesome God. And for one thing, it really shows that when God wants something to happen, no matter what the circumstance, He
will make it happen. One such example was last Friday just before
One.
I had planned the day out nicely, albeit to my liking. I'd planned to get out of the house on time, get to uni, do our video editing exercise and be done by about 2 or 3pm and head straight to the lighthouse to help out with the set design. So yup, I thought that nothing could stand in the way of things.
But then it happened the very second I stepped out of my front door. My entire driveway was filled with branches, leaves... the entire tree! I literally shut the door, stopped to think again, and then went outside again to look. And yes, indeed it turned out that my very inconsiderate neighbour has decided she wanted to cut down her tree, which is in her backyard which is by our driveway (her house was in a corner lot and ours is the first house in the adjacent street) and hence the tree-cutters had to access her backyard via our front, and my car was just.. stuck! There wasn't even enough room for me to get out, I had to get the guys to move away some of the branches just so I could get through. Oh no, I thought, and shuddered at the fact that I had to take public transport in Perth (being so reliant on my own wheels). I had to reconfigure my plans...
So yeah, waited under the scorching Australian sun for the bus to arrive to take me directly to Murdoch University. Shan't complain too much as I doubt anyone will be interested in hearing it anyway, and besides, I waited only 15 mins, which is good for Perth standard. So anyway, got down to uni...
Met the group, yes I was late, but they haven't started anyway, and we just did our thing. By the time we were done, I realised that it was already 3pm!! Argh *panic* I don't have time to help with set design anymore if i'm even on time for band prac at 4. And the bus! Ohmy I needed to take the bus home first, how long is that gonna take, I wondered.
So I prayed.
I really didn't wanna be late. Everytime I arrive late for something my mood is always rather black cos I know i've left a bad impression somewhere. So yeah, I was anxious.
And just as I was walking towards the bus stop, guess who I saw. I saw fellow Agapean, Matt Ho! And I was thinking, Lord is this true? Did You really place Matt there so that I won't be late getting to the Lighthouse?? And lo and behold, Matt was indeed on his way home in Canningvale, and my place in Willetton was pretty much on the way.
Talk about WoW. My God is like. WoW.
And then you know the rest lor, got there on time, and God really stole the rest of the show. It was His to start with anyway.
You go God!
still... wow...
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Monday, May 12, 2008
8 weeks
Went swimming after uni today! Phwoarr my arms ache... which goes to show how long since I last exercised. Wish I could blame it on my busy schedule. Ok I will. Yah, it's cos i've been so busy at uni and all, I guess such things will have to wait.
HOLIDAYS ARE ROUND THE CORNER!! Woohoo! After my last paper on 13 June i'll go look for a good gym to join and get me a personal trainer. Time to bulk up, Jon. I'm just really so looking forward to the coming hols. Dun think i'll go back to Singapore, but am still considering making a trip down to Melbourne...? See how lah.
I also realised that because Murdoch's 2nd semester starts only on 4th August, that means that from the time I finish my exam till the next semester, I will be having an
8 week break! Goodness I never realised it was gonna be that long until I actually sat down to count the number of weeks I had. Man, one can really do a lot in 8 weeks. Maybe I can come back to uni all bulked up? Adopt a new look maybe? Hmmm... how exciting!
(:
11:40 PM |
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